Zivon softly rubbed his brothers back, "Its okay Zane. Its not your fault. It must have been part of Ares plan. He made me believe that this wouldn't hurt you so I would do it and probably made you forget so that-", Zivon stopped, deciding that Zane didn't need to know the full reasons for all this. He wanted to protect his brother. "I don't blame you Zane. Nope of this would have happened if I wasn't so gullible. This is all my fault. But I love you Zane, I wont let anyone hurt you again. Can you trust me on that", Zivon replied. He hoped his brother said yes, in his heart he knew he needed his brothers trust even if he felt he didn't deserve it.

"Okay, I feel safe with you." He tells him, a blush covering his cheeks before he hid his head in Zivon's neck embarrassed about blushing in front of him, his stomach fluttered at Zivon's words. He closed his eyes with a yawn, unable to help himself before he slowly fell asleep.

A few minutes later he jerked wake a silent scream on his lips as he woke remembering the pain that he had been in, he looked around taking a deep breath as he realized that he wasn't in pain and wasn't back in Tartarus alone, he rested his head back on Zivon's shoulder.

Zivon stroked his brothers back as he slept and when he jerked awake he instantly moved to comfort him. "It was just a dream Zivon. You're okay, you are safe", he said, holding his brother close. Zivon would have done anything to redo all of this. All of the pain he caused his twin. He hated himself and Ares for it but it was more himself now. He knew he really shouldn't have fallen for what Ares had let old him. Zivon lay down on the bed, laying on his back and staring at the ceiling. He patted the spot beside him for Zane. "I really am sorry for everything Zane. If I had have known the price I would never have done what I did. I shouldn't have trusted Ares and should have listened to mum and dad", he replied, meeting his brothers eyes. He knew in his heart he would never forgive himself but if his brother could then he might be able to be easier on himself about things.

In the space between awake and asleep Zane could remember him and the premonition that he had had. "I knew it would happen," He tells him with a scratchy voice. "It was live with the pain or loose you forever I didn't want that." He then opens his eyes and blinks a few times. "Zivon?" He asked before snuggling closer, he still felt guilty for not remembering him but there was nothing he could do about it.

"Tell me about our memories?" He asked softly trying to forget about the nightmare of his time in Tartarus. "I really want to know about you, or us I guess I really want to remember. Or not if you don't want to tell me, I'm sure I can ask Mum and Dad." His eyes becoming sad as Zivon didn't answer him right away he felt like something had been put on his chest making it hard to breath, and he started to have a panic attack and not know why he was, he didn't even know what to say to Zivon as he tried to get his breath back but it only made him hyperventilate more. His eyes finally rolled back in his head and he collapsed.

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Zivon frowned, how could Zane ever think he would loose him. He wanted to ask but he knew now wasn't the time. A small smile crossed his face when Zane asked him about memories of the two of them and he wondered where he should start. All his memories involved his brother in some way. He froze when Zane collapsed beside and moved quickly to cradle him in his lap. "Come on Zane. Wake up now", he said, looking down at his brother. He wasn't sure why he did it but he leaned forward and placed a soft kiss on his brothers lips as he continued to say the say words to him. He knew he would never tell his brother about the kiss. He wasn't sure he could handle it if his brother laughed at him for these knew feelings. Zivon jumped slightly when his brother awoke not long after his kiss and quickly shifted his hands away from where they had been rubbing his cheek softly as he tried to hold back a slight blush at being caught in such a action. "You okay?", He asked him, the concern evident in his voice. "I am sorry. Of course I will tell you everything you want to know Zane."

"Sorry for freaking out." He tells him with a blush, Zivon was so close to him, he wasn't awake when Zivon kissed him but Zivon being close made him feel all warm and gooey inside he snuggled closer. "Tell me, please?" He asks softly not sure what to do, or say to make him tell him about what memories Zivon has about them both.

"I'd love to know what we were like. I want my memories back. I don't like it, it's like there is a hole in my head and I really don't want it to be there I want my memories of you back." He sobbed snuggling closer to him, and hiding his head in Zivon's chest not wanting Zivon to think of him as weak for crying over having a hole in his memories.

The tears soon stopped and he looked up at him, sniffling he rubbed his eyes and cheeks. "Please?" He asked before waiting patiently for Zivon to start talking about what he remembered from the first 10 years of their lives together...well not together, just as twins Zane thought sadly though he couldn't remember Zivon he could still remember all the feelings that he had for him.

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"It's okay", Zivon replied, having to draw his attention away from his brothers lips before he kissed them again. He knew it wasn't fair to take advantage of his brother when he wasn't conscious but Zane had every reason to hate him now. Zivon sifted through his memories for something that didn't end in either of them nearly being killed. They lived in death and Zivon knew a number of the adventures he had lead his brother on had nearly killed them but they had been fun at the time.

Zivon chuckled at one memory that came to mind, "I remember one morning, we where about six at the time and we had woken before mum and dad and you where hungry. I tried to make breakfast for you. I remember I burnt the bacon, toast and the eggs and then blew up the microwave after trying to heat up a tin of baked beans in it", he replied smirking slightly at the memory. "I don't think I have ever seen mum and dad move as fast as that morning. I know its not much but its one of the few memories I have that does not involve me getting us both killed", he replied, shifting to lie back beside Zane again.

Zane giggled at what Zivon said it was a rather funny memory. "Did we often end up nearly being killed?" He asked it was fascinating to him memories like the one Zivon told him were not and it sounded like he was missing all the fun things from his life. "Tell me more, even the ones where we are almost killed, they sound interesting. Or even the other ones that you have where we don't end up almost killed." He begs, he really wants to know what they have got up too and was rather peeved that he couldn't remember he really want to.